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Ryan and Delmore out on a date, part 1

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Do you ever have those desperation moments leading to drastic critical decisions on the hope that it’ll change the way you’re feeling? You can relate, right?
Well, that was Ryan’s case at least when he had had enough with disappointments, unwillingness to communicate and misunderstanding. He had taken it upon himself to set a goal instead and work towards achieving it. Ironically, his focus was cut off, unexpectedly, by a young beautiful female. What else could rattle a man’s concentration?

It started as a normal, why-not type of conversations on a social media website. He was slick, smooth and charming. She was intriguing, understanding, with distinguished communication skills. Her looks played the first major part into pushing him to initiate a conversation. Say what you want, but physical appearance is the main reason you’re attracted to someone. The relationship, sooner than foretold, and what could ever be anticipated with human behavior and emotions, escalated to where he asked her out on a date and she accepted his invitation wholeheartedly.

He was nervous since the idea of impressing her non-virtually was nagging at him in the back of his head. The excitability is nightmarish, believe me. He had spent the period before his big day preparing accordingly: working out every day to get back in shape and tone his long-rested body, along with a nutritious diet. He had planned the activities thoughtfully starting with movies, to bowling, to a cliche walk on the beach and finally the best part being pizza, coke and video games at his place. He picked the most elegant wardrobe clothes he possessed to grant him the aura, glow and emanation of the classiest, most handsome gentleman: light grey slacks, color-matching jacket, a black shirt and black-tainted-grey oxfords.

She, on the other hand, didn’t turn it into a big deal. It was just another date for her, just like the tons of previous ones she went through. Can you blame her for getting used to it? She must be the most desirable lady in town.

So she went with casual wear. Since it was a summer day, she wore a short, casual, navy blue sundress ornamented by shapes of wildflowers and accessorized with a beige belt, accentuating her beautiful curves. White « Pisces » sandals were her choice for footwear. She didn’t seem like a big fan of accessories. She simply went with a charcoal, MK (short for ‘ Michael Kors’) handbag and an elegant white, Olivia Burton’s wristwatch. She has long, light-brown hair straddling down from both shoulders with a few stray hairs concealing bits of her round-shaped face. A small delicate nose, small ears, thin lips and big innocent alluring brown eyes that light up like a Christmas tree when she smiles. Her milky white skin was soft and flawless. She has a thin, slender body, not the athletic type but her whole silhouette was eye-catching and mesmeric. He picked her up early on a weekend day, from her house so they could easily execute the agenda to the letter. He had garnered her a bouquet of rare black roses that he grows in his filled-with-exotic-plants roof garden.

He stood by his car rehearsing his greeting line, it was something of this sort « Hi… No no no I sound like a retard… ummm… Good evening beautiful lady… NOOO, why do I sound like an Englishman’s butler? Oh boy, I hope I don’t screw this up. I’m nervous as ffff… » and that’s when she suddenly came into view on her front door, manifesting her unmatched beauty. He stood there like a goof, jaw-dropped to the floor and he only gathered his wits when she smiled shyly at him and said casually « hey ».

He stuttered a Hi back at her and then complimented her while handing her the bouquet which she appreciatively accepted, then he opened the car door for her. He was definitely trying to impress her.

Their first stop was the cinema. He had chosen a horror movie to her liking during which he relished the way she was clinging to his arm whenever the events tensioned. He was grinning from ear to ear as if he won the lottery. It was dark and partially empty which fed some erotic thoughts that were soon dismissed out of his head. He was a respectful gentleman after all. The movie was over and it was time to use the dose of adrenaline, provided by the jump scares of the movie, for bowling.

He was a pro, with above average experience and she was a noob. He took complete advantage of that as he showed her the right movements for the execution of a good throw. He circled behind her and held both her shoulders steady with his hands. He slid his right hand on her right arm reaching the back of her hand, then he gently swung her arm using his, in slow-mo to exhibit the exact trajectory she should mimic. During the whole time, his other hand was holding her waist, his front side glued to her backside, and they were both in sync to an extent that one would swear it was choreographed. The tension between them heightened on its own for their bodies were attached to each other and you can’t control your hormones in such situations, especially when the two of them were seemingly into each other. Of course, I say seemingly because none of them have confessed to the other yet. Though, the hints, subtle as they may be for both of them, yet clear as a hot summer day for anyone else.

To the two lovebirds’ surprise, she got a perfect hit on her first try. He took it easy on her and let her win. He simply enjoyed losing purposely to her just so he could relish watching her rubbing it in his face with such childish innocence, winsomeness, and playful spirit. They captured silly selfies of each other in which they looked nothing but goofy, lame and carefree. This day was off to a matchless start for him. What a confidence boost!

Nothing was going to ruin this day for him. Not even God himself. Then he shuddered and scratched the last part off of his mind. He was a believer after all.

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The Dual Nature of Fear: Protector and Parasite

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Fear: Friend or Foe?

What if fear isn’t your enemy but your greatest ally? Explore how this powerful emotion secretly shapes your life and might be the key to unlocking your true self.

 

The Quest for Self-Discovery

As individuals and members of the human race, we should devote our greatest effort to discovering who we truly are. We often arrogantly proclaim to know ourselves better than anyone else, but do we? When we hear the word “fear,” what’s the first thing that comes to mind? It likely conjures images of trauma and negative experiences. This amalgamation of letters has gripped many of us, playing a significant role in our existence.

 

Fear’s Significance and History

“Fear.” This small word may seem insignificant, yet it is full of meaning and history. Most people deeply care about their lives, and this tendency exists thanks to fear, even if many tremble at the mere mention of it.

 

The Denial of Fear

As humans, we have a tendency to deny what we don’t understand. We often deny our fear. This is understandable; we are naturally drawn to heroic narratives. Everyone loves tales of bravery and fearlessness. We revel in stories of victory and triumph. So, why should we care about fear?

 

Fear as a Fundamental Human Trait

Fear is a fundamental aspect of our humanity. What kind of brave person denies their true identity, unless we are discussing cowardice? Fear is a powerful emotion; it can speak without uttering a word. While fear may make us seem weak or inferior, it can also affirm our humanity. Fear serves as both a guardian and a ruler, governing our choices and decisions. And believe me, ruling is no easy task, especially in an unstable democracy of emotions and chemicals.

 

Fear as a Survival Mechanism

When the kingdom is under attack, fear can override reason and logic to ensure survival, even if the perceived danger is illusory. Fear acts as a musician, playing the drumbeats of our lives, its music resonating with the world around us. This vibration takes hold of the souls of all living beings.

 

Fear’s Role in Time and Perception

When fear takes charge, we feel our existence connect with the universe. We sense our lives intertwining with something vast and complex. Time slows down, transforming into something else entirely, while our perception sharpens, turning our world into a battlefield.

 

Fear as the Overprotective Mother

Fear can be likened to an overprotective mother, striving to shield her children, yet her protectiveness may hinder their growth and limit their potential. This complex emotion plays dual roles, serving as both protector and sage.

 

Fear’s Parasitic Nature

This inherited facet of our evolution influences our daily behaviors and shapes our character. At times, it turns into a parasite, draining our energy and hindering our progress. Unlike typical parasites, this inner fire originates from our own being; it can stifle our movement or compel us to act impulsively.

 

Fear’s Betrayal in Communication

This force can sometimes act disloyally, betraying its creator. For example, when our fear of judgment undermines our ability to communicate clearly, it jeopardizes our goals ,whether making a good impression or articulating a point. Miscommunication often leads to misunderstandings.

 

The Overwhelming Force of Fear

Viewing the world from this perspective can be enlightening, even if we cannot prove we share the same perceptions. When fear becomes overwhelming, it can manifest as a mentally unstable individual grappling with severe trust issues. This emotion does not easily relinquish control over our destiny or our capacity for change.

 

Fear’s Relationship with Learning and Future Prediction

Fear compels us to obsess over predicting the future and learning from the past, as it intensely despises pain, especially when repeated. Fear’s aversion to pain fuels our motivation and imagination, enabling us to predict effectively and avoid obstacles. Surprisingly, fear can accelerate the learning process.

 

Fear’s Role in Human Beliefs

This complex chemical response empowers human beliefs and convictions, adding a unique spark that transforms them into dogma, shaping our behavior. Fear renders beliefs unquestionable; when we deny our beliefs, we deny our identity. All humans have standards, fortified by fear. Without fear, we are nobody. Fear is, in essence, us.

 

Modern Fears and Illusions

Our fears of change, rejection, the unknown, failure, loneliness, dissatisfaction, and unmet expectations are illusions that have become overly significant in our lives. While desire undeniably influences these fears, they have overshadowed fear’s original purpose: survival and the preservation of our existence.

 

Mental Survival in the 21st Century

We still engage in the same primitive survival game, but today’s survival is more mental than physical. In the 21st century, we battle internal dangers and threats. The technological and scientific revolution has shifted our struggles from the external world to our minds.

 

Emptiness and the Human Spirit

Homo sapiens no longer strive to coexist with the external world; our focus has shifted to mental survival. Humanity, with its problem-solving tendencies, may even create challenges just to enjoy overcoming them. While we abhor pain, we also cannot tolerate emptiness.

 

Fear and the Freedom of Choice

The human spirit is unaccustomed to emptiness and the freedom of choice. We thrive under pressure. Fear, once selected by nature for survival, has become less useful in a world dominated by peace. Our violent nature, no longer expressed physically, threatens either our destruction or our evolution.

 

The Inner Predators

If violence once protected us from external threats, today’s predators reside within us. Can we protect ourselves from ourselves and our potential actions? This is a question we must explore.

 

The Future of Fear

We try to envision virtual dangers to validate fear, but how long can this continue? Is it possible that fear will eventually be selected out by nature and become obsolete? If fear’s only remaining role is in competition, isn’t that more closely related to greed, desire, and humanity’s inherent hunger for power and occupation? Can fear survive in the modern world? That is the question.

 

Written By: Habib Riden

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