A letter for me : I like to explore the dark side.

Everyone ought to consider in their lifetimes being narrow-minded. People tend to judge self-centeredness as an awful thing. On the contrary, it might be your method towards having a gainful, profitable, and fortifying life.

Once you consider death, accept the fact that life is a gift you should appreciate and take care of what you’ve been granted, you’ would perceive that there’s a decent side to being egotistical.
I want you to think about the amount of energy you’ve put on other people, the thoughts, the ideas of surprises for birthdays, the endeavors you’ve made to cheer them up, the visits you’ve done when they weren’t exactly well, how you’ve put them first and managed what they’ve been going through while at the same time dismissing whatever you’ve been experiencing. Why wouldn’t you invest in yourself as much as you invest in others?

Is there any valid reason why you wouldn’t consider yourself for a change?
I realize it can mislead, so bear with me, I’m not saying that you should be intensified and centered on yourself or disregard others’ feelings and utilize them for your advantage and your gains.
The good kind of selfish is when you realize that you don’t constantly have to say yes to doing things you don’t want to do it, when you understand that you don’t need to apologize for something you didn’t do just because the other person is too proud to admit his or her fault and you’re too frightened to even consider losing them. I firmly believe that once you do that instead of being selfish, there’s no going back because you will be the feeble and touchy one, whom anybody can exploit. Now that’s greed!

I have every reason to presume that being selfish in some areas will permit you to develop few characteristics you’ve been seeking for such a long time, for example, humanity, respect, self-love, fearlessness or compassion. The latter is what you feel when you want to help someone who is enduring, someone complaining to you about his day when yours was equally bad, someone crying to you for help with their shifts cause they have an important date when you likewise have one, somebody you see on the road asking for cash when you’ve been experiencing some monetary challenges yourself. I get that you need to help other people, however, prepare to have your mind blown cause you’re hurting too and you may require help too, but only you can support yourself.

You need to recognize the fact that feelings must be felt.

You need to acknowledge the fact that you might be depressed, tired, hungry and emotionally drained.

You have to comprehend your body and your mind when it guides you to rest.
You have to think about yourself or else nobody will.

You have to have enough love for yourself before you choose to spread it.

It can be tough, but what isn’t? The best of things happen when you work for them, so it’s critical to build up a channel in your life, for all the negative reasoning you’ve been doing. It’s what’s making you feel anxious about yourself and it’s what’s stopping you from exploring yourself and things you may have always wanted to try but those thoughts convinced you that you will fail or that you’re simply not equipped to deal with it.
You’re only hurting yourself when you state that!
By no means should you knock yourself down! You should never give superstition or dread a chance to run your life, you have to be the ruler taking charge of your destiny. So whatever it is that you always wanted to do, do it now. Just try, even if you don’t succeed at the first time or the second time, or the third(well you get the point) you ought to never abandon something you’ve always wanted cause it’s difficult to wait but worse to regret.

I am convinced that when you choose to turn into somewhat more narrow-minded you’ll eventually become your best self. So remove that poisonous individuals from your life that’s been holding you back, disregarding your boundaries and manipulating you into thinking that he or she’s always “right” by playing the victim, leave the relationship that doesn’t bring you happiness, leave the group of “friends” you don’t seem to want to fit in with, leave the  job that murders your spirit. Simply do whatever you have to do to pursue your heart, however, recall that in that process you must learn to love, accept, forgive yourself and be good to yourself, in light of the fact that without you all of us are without a wellspring of numerous magnificent things.