Before I sleep

Happiness for me was gone long ago
I am in a world where time feels so slow
Where sadness and darkness overflow
Always alone and lying low
Just an endless depressing show

You don’t need to talk about your problems
Your fears or the things that haunt your dreams
About the last time you had a fight
Or the thought that made you cry before you slept
The day you could barely leave your bed
Or that time you cried with a cat on your knees

Why would you ?
Why would you make yourself vulnerable?
Do you want to feel naked ?
Wouldn’t that make you feel uncomfortable?

Never show them that part of you
How could they ever understand?
When you yourself barely do
It won’t change a damn thing about how you feel
So close that door and never open it
For it is a dark room that shall never be seen

Those are the questions you ask yourself every night
And those are the answers you will find true
A cycle that will always repeat itself
Until you break the curse that was cast upon you

This is what I go through everytime before I sleep
Even though I know I don’t deserve your kindness
Keep me close and never leave me
For you are the light that will scatter my darkness
The spell that will get me out of that damn cycle.